Wednesday, June 20, 2012

The Science of Sleep

In 2 days my boyfriend will be here and I can already tell what is going to happen the night before.

I have this problem, anticipation gets the best of me and keeps me from sleeping. I think I focus too hard on trying to sleep that I don't end up falling asleep till maybe an two hours before I need to get up. (or If I have nothing to do till later, I will completely over sleep throughout the day)

Does anyone have this problem? Or is it just me?

Sometimes I can lay there and plan out the next day, and sometimes I can just lay there and think about clothes. Weird, I know. I told my boyfriend about this a while back and he just laughed, I use to think it was funny, and I guess in a sense I still do, but sometimes I really lose sleep that I need. And the loss of sleep could potentially ruin the next day if I get grumpy or too tired mid-day and just want to go home and sleep. I am not sure if the reason why my body has been waking me up around 1:30 a.m these past couple of days is because somewhere in the great amount of thoughts playing in my mind I know that my boyfriend will be here in 2 days.

I woke up tonight at 1:30 a.m and it's 2:54 a.m now, the time flew by this hour and a half later, I really didn't expect it to be nearly 3:00. And to add to all the thoughts already on my mind, right now I feel hungry. I feel like my stomach is empty, so now I get to think about whether I should just get up and eat or whether I shouldn't because I should be sleeping. Awesome, right?

Perhaps my mind or body, or both has programmed my body to wake up at this time because in my mind I know that at 1:30 a.m means that it is 2:30 a.m where my boyfriend lives, and that this is around the time he gets off of work on a good day, which is the time that we get to talk for the day. Could it be? At least for this week, it may be.

I remember back in December when I was going to visit my boyfriend I couldn't sleep the night before my flight. I was laying there, trying so hard not to, think about everything about the next day. What was I going to wear, what time should I leave, what if I am late, what if I have something I shouldn't have on the plane, what if I miss my flight, what if I get lost, what if, what if, and even more "What ifs?" Even if I had planned prior to the night before, I would still find myself doing this. But anticipation isn't the only thing keeping me awake. Maybe there is another word for all this that I am missing. Several times, from what I can remember, I have lied there thinking about clothes. Just clothes. Well not just clothes, sometimes shoes and jewelry. Thinking about outfits, what I wanted to buy, calculating things in my mind. Everything from the lipstick on my lips to the polish on my toes, I would be thinking about right as I planned to fall asleep. But wait, now that I think about it, I have done this before just thinking about food. Back when I use to bake cakes, I would think about designs and flavors, colors, frosting, everything.

Why is it I can't feel this urge to not want to sleep when It's time for work or something important? I do this all the time, I wish I knew what to call it, maybe I need sleeping pills? I mean, I love sleep and can get good sleep, it's just those days when I have something "big" to do the next day that I can't seem to put my mind to rest.

It's 3:07 in the morning and I cannot sleep.  I went to bed at 11:00 p.m and woke up at 1:30 a.m and I can't sleep. I don't know what to call this, but for now, I will just say

I am an over thinker.
A tired one.

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    1. It's such a pain isn't it!? No I haven't maybe I should try that, Sometimes I exercise before sleep, I guess that could be helpful too.

      Thanks so much Stacey!

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  2. Omg ME TOO! I tend to overthink on so many stuff in life and this causes me to not be able to sleep! Take more holidays or mini break away from people for yourself! Reflect, write out what's bothering you and what has made your day! I did that and I felt better! :D

    Please try to sleep to stay healthy! :D

    And I followed back! :D

    backtofive.blogspot.com

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    1. Phew, glad I am not the only one. I like the sound of mini holidays by myself, I wish I still lived at the beach, I would take a walk 5 minutes and be sitting at the oceans shoreline, it was so relaxing when I was stressed or upset. Writing this post actually helped me go to sleep! Who knew!

      Thanks so much Cassandra!

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  3. omg! This happens to me too! Isn't it weird? I wonder if it does have a name?
    It's like the more you think about how you need to sleep, you just can't lol.

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    1. I must research for this name and give us all a diagnosis!

      My body likes to tell me it's tired, then when I take it to bed, it's like "Just kidding!"

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  4. I think it's called ANXIETY Ladies! I get it all the time I over think about anything and everything!

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